DAY 17,
…….I want to come back again to writing…..,it was a couple weeks ago when I stop ……and I see how I made a self justification to not to write …..how i postpone and easily dismiss what is important to me……
Because I had a hectic schedule in my work and still had to deal with closing and moving to new place ,I found myself totally abdicate to my mind and mind reality ……
Every day i was postponing the writing , every day accumulate more and more energy in my body …..experience the explosion of emotions …not to investigate the emotions and energy in me……
…..so I FOUND myself in this too muchness of everything….
………,so I do want to take responsibility and self direct myself with self forgiveness writing :
1.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself postpone my writing .
2.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to not take responsibility for my feelings and emotions ,to not investigate them.
3.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to not see how important is the every day writing and investigate myself .
4. I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to not discipline myself enough to not push myself to write self forgiveness .
5. I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to very easy excuse myself from a point of writing .
6.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself, to really not want to see ,how important is the writing and self forgiveness process , where with this i can support myself, to be more stable in my world.
7.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself ,taking for granted the gift of writing and sharing with everybody the points .
8.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself, to still existing very strong in my mind personality and postponing the walking the points on those personalities.
9.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to exist in this point of too muchness , to not realize that this is only mind perspective .
10.I commit myself to stay with writings of self forgiveness process ,to investigates the points of my mind.
11. I commit myself to practice the 4 count of breathe ,to direct myself with breathe in this physical reality .
